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Title:	illScarlett
Date:	2008-07-14 @ 16:23
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Title:	come back to me,
Date:	2008-06-23 @ 22:23
Security:	public
Music:	I Won't See You Tonight Pt. 2 by A7X
Mood:	dorky

this is unconceivable.

"I can see just fine with you in my life
And there by my side as it starts to. . .fade.
I know this can't be right
Stuck in a dream, a nightmare full of sorrow."

Blaaahh. I absolutely dread change. People change. It's inevitable. But, you know what? If I don't change, I don't. If people truly want to be around me, they will, whether or not they change. I'll let the people who don't want to be in my life go, and I'll keep the ones who do close to me. They will forever be my Loves. (:

"Sorrow sank deep inside my blood,
All the ones around me I cared for,
But most of all I Loved.
But I can't see myself that way,
Please, don't forget me
Or cry while I'm away."

J'adore mon amours.

[I Won't See You Tonight Pt. 2 by A7X.]

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Title:	I want to know what's going on in that pretty little head of yours
Date:	2008-06-17 @ 23:53
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Music:	Reverse This Curse by Escape the Fate
Mood:	pleased

where every day's a Bone Palace Ballet!

Do you ever wonder what's going through someone's mind when you speak to them? What they really, truly feel about you? And do you wonder if they tell you one thing, but actually feel another? And whether or not they think of you when you're not around?

Agh. I hate people. They're so confusing. But they're so simple. All anyone ever wants to do is get by, right? Or is that just me? Sometimes things seem so simple, so perfect, but in reality everything is complicated and multi-dimensional. But if life were simple and perfect, it would get boring. We need a bit of a wild ride to make us appreciate the good.

Clearly I'm in a very condescending mood right now. I'm not too sure how I feel about anything anymore. I just need to mellow out. I dunno . . . Eh. I just need a good kick to the head or something. Something to make me forget all that I need to forget.

Then again, I want to be the person who says, "I lived my life the way I wanted to, felt the way I felt, cried when I was upset, laughed when I was amused. And I don't regret a minute of it!" I think I'll start living like that. Because I can't just keep treating life like it's some sort of chore. Something that I have to do. Because if I truly wanted to give up, deep down, I probably would have already. I'm going to take life at it's bullshitiest, and have a blast at it's best. And I won't regret it. I can't live my life under someone else's expectations, it's never been in my mindset to do what people expect of me. Typical Aquarius, I guess. Unpredictability beckons me.

Ahh. Now that I've got that out of my system, I can go on with my life. My life that I will no longer regret. Schweet.

But my regretless life will not consist of studying. I refuse. REFUSE! Man. My math exam's tomorrow. xDD I'll do alright on it. I'd do better if I'd studied/reviewed. But that ain't mah thing.

I've got nothing else to say now. xDD I got all the confusedness out of my system. I feel pretty awesome. Except for the fact that my stomach is committing suicide. Like, fuckin' MASSive organ failure. (I just referenced the Rev, yeah.)

Nobody goes on LJ anymore. Which is saddening. No one will know about my revelation.
. .Ah well.

Rica out, man.

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Title:	i'm afraid of. . .
Date:	2007-07-13 @ 23:50
Security:	public
Music:	the theft by atreyu
Mood:	thirsty

Here:
x = Somewhat
xx = Greater
xxx = huge enormous crippling omg fear

A
[xx] Achluophobia - Fear of darkness.
[ ] Acrophobia - Fear of heights.
[ ] Agliophobia - Fear of pain.
[xxx] Agoraphobia - Fear of open spaces or crowds.
[ ] Aichmophobia - Fear of needles or pointed objects.
[ ] Amaxophobia - Fear of riding in a car.
[ ] Androphobia - Fear of men.
[ ] Anginophobia - Fear of angina or choking.
[ ] Anthrophobia - Fear of flowers.
[xxx] Anthropophobia - Fear of people or society.
[ ] Aphenphosmphobia - Fear of being touched.
[ ] Arachnophobia - Fear of spiders.
[ ] Arithmophobia - Fear of numbers.
[ ] Astraphobia - Fear of thunder and lightening.
[ ] Ataxophobia - Fear of disorder or untidiness.
[ ] Atelophobia - Fear of imperfection.
[xxx] Atychiphobia - Fear of failure.
[xxx] Autophobia - Fear of being alone; no one there for you.

B
[ ] Bacteriophobia - Fear of bacteria.
[ ] Barophobia - Fear of gravity.
[xx] Bathmophobia - Fear of stairs or steep slopes. (Only going down them. xD)
[ ] Batrachophobia - Fear of amphibians.
[ ] Bibliophobia - Fear of books.
[ ] Botanophobia - Fear of plants.

C
[ ] Cacophobia - Fear of ugliness.
[ ] Catagelophobia - Fear of being ridiculed publicly.
[ ] Catoptrophobia - Fear of mirrors.
[ ] Chionophobia - Fear of snow.
[ ] Chromophobia - Fear of colors.
[ ] Chronomentrophobia - Fear of clocks. (With the amount of clocks in my house? That'd be terrible!)
[ ] Claustrophobia - Fear of confined spaces.
[ ] Coulrophobia - Fear of clowns.
[ ] Cyberphobia - Fear of computers.
[ ] Cynophobia - Fear of dogs.

D
[ ] Dendrophobia - Fear of trees.
[ ] Dentophobia - Fear of dentists.
[ ] Domatophobia - Fear of houses.
[ ] Dystychiphobia - Fear of accidents.

E
[ ] Ecophobia - Fear of the home.
[ ] Elurophobia - Fear of cats.
[ ] Ephebiphobia - Fear of teenagers. (These teenagers scare the living shit outta me. D: )
[ ] Equinophobia - Fear of horses.

G
[ ] Gamophobia - Fear of marriage.
[ ] Genuphobia - Fear of knees.
[xx] Glossophobia - Fear of speaking in public
[ ] Gynophobia - Fear of women.

H
[xx] Heliophobia - Fear of the sun.
[ ] Hemophobia - Fear of blood.
[ ] Herpetophobia - Fear of reptiles.
[ ] Hydrophobia - Fear of water.

I
[ ] Iatrophobia - Fear of doctors.
[ ] Insectophobia - Fear of insects.

K
[ ] Koinoniphobia - Fear of rooms.

L
[ ] Leukophobia - Fear of the color white.
[ ] Lilapsophobia - Fear of tornadoes and hurricanes.
[ ] Lockiophobia - Fear of childbirth.

M
[ ] Mageirocophobia - Fear of cooking.
[ ] Melanophobia - Fear of the color black.
[ ] Microphobia - Fear of small things.
[ ] Mysophobia - Fear of dirt and germs.

N
[ ] Necrophobia - Fear of death or dead things.
[ ] Noctiphobia - Fear of the night.
[ ] Nosocomephobia - Fear of hospitals.

O
[ ] Obesophobia - Fear of gaining weight.
[ ] Octophobia - Fear of the figure 8.
[ ] Ombrophobia - Fear of rain.
[ ] Ophidiophobia - Fear of snakes.
[ ] Ornithophobia - Fear of birds.

P
[ ] Papyrophobia - Fear of paper.
[ ] Pathophobia - Fear of disease.
[ ] Pedophobia - Fear of children.
[ ] Philophobia - Fear of love.
[ ] Phobophobia - Fear of being afraid. (That's SO ironic. xD)
[ ] Podophobia - Fear of feet.
[ ] Porphyrophobia - Fear of the color purple.
[ ] Pteridophobia - Fear of ferns.
[ ] Pteromerhanophobia - Fear of flying.
[ ] Pyrophobia - Fear of fire.

S
[ ] Scolionophobia - Fear of school.
[ ] Selenophobia - Fear of the moon.
[x] Sociophobia - Fear of social evaluation.
[ ] Somniphobia - Fear of sleep.

T
[ ] Tachophobia - Fear of speed.
[ ] Technophobia - Fear of technology.
[ ] Tonitrophobia - Fear of thunder.
[ ] Trypanophobia - Fear of injections. (no, I quite like them.)

V-Z
[ ] Venustraphobia - Fear of beautiful women.
[ ] Verminophobia - Fear of germs.
[ ] Wiccaphobia - Fear of witches and witchcraft.
[xxx] Xenophobia - Fear of strangers or foreigners.
[ ] Zoophobia - Fear of animals.

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